Anxiety Girl - Lacey London

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Official Blurb:

When a seemingly perfect life takes a dangerous turn, nothing is certain...
  Loving life in the glitzy village of Alderley Edge, Sadie Valentine thought she had it all. With her best friend, Aldo, for company, Sadie spends her time sipping bubbles amongst the glitterati in her many local bars and restaurants. However, unbeknown to the outside world, a series of unfortunate events cause her to fall into a lonely hole.
Keeping her mask in place on a daily basis proves harder than Sadie anticipates, and when she is dealt yet more blows, her positivity starts to crumble.
Despite her efforts to battle her demons, Sadie soon realises that sometimes, it’s not quite as simple as picking yourself up and carrying on.
With Aldo by her side, can Sadie crawl out of the impossibly dark hole and take back control of her life?
Join Sadie Valentine as she discovers who she really is, and learns the true meaning of friendship...

My Thoughts:

Wow, I had no expectations from this book. I kept seeing the author promoting it on Twitter last year and then I was lucky enough to grab it when it was free. So I thought I’d give it a go as it looked different to what I usually read. I expected it to be just an Ok, gap-filler book. I wasn’t expecting it to really hit home, have me gripped and crying alongside Sadie!
The style of the book had a clear and effortless feel to its writing. It was easy to get straight in on the story and know exactly what was going on and who everyone was.
Sadie is going through a rough time, she’s lost her man, her job and now her best friend is moving out. These may not seem like the biggest tragedies in the world, and there certainly are worse, but she feels completely alone. And sometimes it’s the small stuff that can make you spiral. One thing after another hits her, and you can see her withdrawing into herself. A once bubbly girl is gripped by fear loneliness and desolation.
The way the author describes the gradual fall into the pit of despair was spot on. You could really empathise with Sadie and knew precisely how she was feeling, especially if you’ve been there. I was on medication for two years, and the main side effect was a feeling of depression. I’m a very bubbly person, but all of a sudden I found myself questioning ‘what is the point to life?’ I would cry for no reason, I would feel alone and like Sadie just wanted to hide in bed forever! I had the luxury of reminding myself that it was only the tablets. This wasn’t really me. I had to take them again recently, and I could feel the grip of despair enveloping me that I decided the pain I am in is better than that any day! To think that people go through this and they don’t have a cause for it is truly devastating for them. I wouldn’t wish how I felt or what Sadie was going through on my worst enemy.
I know this is a fictional story and not a self-help book, but it made me realise that what I felt was really depression and anxiety. It helped me to understand that what I was feeling wasn’t unique to me. I never looked up depression when I was on the tablets as I didn’t want to go on more medication to counteract the depression. I did seek counselling which helped me immensely, and I wish I’d known that there were help groups out there that I could have gone along to.
I think this book is a great read for someone who may be going through something similar. It may help with the few little mantras that are mentioned, and other small bits of advice given, but it certainly isn’t a self-help book.
I was a little disappointed that there wasn’t a note from the author at the end of the book describing why she chose to write this story but hay ho. I’m not sure I will read the follow-on stories. I think for me, this was a perfect read; it made me stop and think. It put a lot of things into perspective, and I wouldn’t want to ruin that with the follow-ons.
A brilliantly written book and a fantastic tribute to an illness that is often overlooked or carries a lot of stigmas. I think the author did the cause justice.

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Anxiety Girl
by Lacey London
Date Started
13th October 2019
Date Finished
14th October 2019
Rating
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